Thursday, April 25, 2013

Shock and Fatigue


“…and delivered righteous Lot, who was oppressed
by the filthy conduct of the wicked…”

1 Peter 2:7

Culture shock. Nicole and I had been warned many times that we would encounter it when we moved to Mongolia. Predictions varied, but they generally ran like this: “After six months or so, the novelty of living there will rub off, and you’ll suddenly find yourself irritated by the people and events around you. You’ll get over it, but it will take time. So just be ready for it.”

The predictions proved true, and I remember the first time I realized that. I was at the bank.

Transactions at the bank were conducted on the second floor, and that meant an elevator ride. You never knew how long you’d be there until the elevator doors opened and you stepped into the hall and saw the people. On that day, I thought it would be a quick visit, as I was alone in the elevator. But when the doors opened, I saw that I’d be there a while. The lines were at least ten people deep at each teller’s window. I sighed and took my place.

Now, usually, I brought something to do – a book to read or a recording to listen to. But this day I had forgotten. So I stood there, and stood there, and waited.

Finally, it was almost my turn. I was next in line and just waiting for the guy in front of me to finish counting his money and move on. And, then, just then, a young woman exited from the elevator, walked past me, and pushed aside the guy counting his money. She pulled some papers and money from her purse and thrust them through the window to the teller.

The lady behind the window looked past the woman at the line and said something to the woman and pointed. The woman glanced behind her and then turned back to the teller, pointing at the papers she was carrying and pushing the money across the counter. The lady looked once more at the line and then shrugged, took the woman’s papers and starting processing her transaction.

It took me a moment to realize that the woman had just budged past me and the rest of the line, and then it hit me. And it hit me hard! Anger bubbled up within me, and suddenly I was furious. I couldn’t believe that this had just happened. And I looked behind me at the other people in the line and saw them standing there like sheep, mutely resigned. And that made me angry too! Was everyone crazy? Didn’t anyone see how stupid and unfair this was?

I managed to control myself and I didn’t go ballistic on anyone. But on the inside, I felt like I had exploded. I concluded at that moment that everything about Mongolia was stupid; the way people drove, the way they talked, the way they walked. Everything.

I left the bank and started walking home. The sub-zero temperatures cooled my head, and I realized that culture shock had finally hit. Yeah, sure, the woman shouldn’t have budged, but that wasn’t really why I was angry. I was just finally feeling all the pent-up frustration over the cultural differences between me and my new home. And it was bubbling up as anger.

In the following months, that anger dissipated. I gradually came to accept those differences, and though I sometimes felt annoyed, I was able to recognize that the problem was mostly mine, that my cultural background was prompting in me stronger reactions than the situations warranted.

After three years in Mongolia, I thought I had culture shock licked. What I didn’t know was that something equally difficult and sinister was lurking in the shadows – culture fatigue, and I was not prepared for it.

Culture fatigue is to culture shock what congestive heart failure is to a heart attack. It involves the psychical accumulation of innumerable annoyances prompted by cultural differences, and it results in chronic feelings of resentment and emotional exhaustion. Culture shock hits suddenly, but culture fatigue builds slowly. Culture shock can prove fatal to a missionary’s career, as he or she may feel forced to abandon the new culture to escape it. Culture fatigue, on the hand, rarely proves fatal, though the nationals may wish it had, since it leaves its victims cynical and depressed.

I can’t identify the starting point of my cultural fatigue, and I think that’s the sinister side of it. It’s subtle in its approach. I just know that I was really struggling with it by the time we concluded our first term in Mongolia.

Fatigue
Over the years, I’ve talked to missionaries from other fields, many of whom shared similar experiences. So I guess it’s fairly common. But, beyond that, since returning to the States, I have realized that this shock and fatigue can be experienced within one’s country as well. It is not necessary to travel to the other side of the globe to encounter a different culture. The culture of my childhood in Seattle is as different in some ways from Geneva’s as my American culture was from Mongolia’s. Anyone can experience shock and fatigue when leaving one culture and entering another.

I was thinking about this yesterday, and I started to wonder whether there was a spiritual application to these observations. Do people ever experience culture shock and fatigue in their spiritual lives?

When I think of the spiritual universe, I think of its inhabitants as belonging to one of two sides, either of good or evil. (I’m not suggesting these are equal in size or power, or anything like that, just that there are only two possibilities.) Humans are either “sons of God” or “sons of the devil”; they are either regenerate or unregenerate.

We are all born within the realm of evil as “children of the devil.” The Bible refers to this as being born “dead” in our sins and trespasses. (Eph. 2:1) That is the culture of which we are a part and in which we begin our pilgrimage through this earthly life. It comes with certain traditions and inclinations that are common to those who share that culture.

Then, for some, a moment comes when, by God’s grace, they are granted new spiritual life. These are the ones who become known as Christians. They are the ones whose spiritual eyes have been opened to see the truths of God’s Word, whose spiritual ears have been enabled to hear the proclamation of the Gospel. With hearing comes faith, and they receive Jesus as Lord, becoming children of God. Paul refers to this process in his letter to the Colossians, saying, “He has delivered us from the power of darkness and conveyed us into the kingdom of the Son of His love.” (Col. 1:13)

We, who are Christians, have been delivered by God from the culture of darkness and placed into the culture of light. What a wonderful truth! But what has happened spiritually has not yet happened physically. Our cultural relocation has occurred in the spiritual realm, but it awaits its full realization – our glorification. And in the meantime, we are left in a foreign culture, members of a heavenly culture.

It seems to me this is the point where culture shock and fatigue can occur in the spiritual realm. A new Christian may go through a ‘honeymoon period’ during which he is able to resist the other culture’s temptations easily. There may be little inner struggle as he experiences the first bloom of love for God. But then, inevitably, he experiences spiritual dissonance. His flesh rises up and begins to respond to the siren call of the other culture. He experiences temptation, and, as he does, he realizes that he is in the midst of a spiritual battle. He becomes suddenly and brutally aware that he is living as a foreigner in an evil culture. And this moment seems analogous culture shock.

In time, the Christian becomes more fully aware of his spiritual state, and he, to a greater or lesser degree, puts on the armor of God and engages in spiritual battle. The shock of the culture clash dissipates.

I think we all sense this conflict, and what I have said so far concerning a spiritual culture shock does not seem unexpected. But what struck me yesterday, and what does seem unexpected to me, is the danger of spiritual cultural fatigue. Is it possible that those Christians who have been in the battle a long time could grow weary, that they could grow fatigued by the ongoing clash of cultures?

The obvious answer is, yes, they can. I suspect it is possible for Christians to fall into a grudging, plodding devotional life, one that despondently (and cynically) awaits release to the heavenly realms as an escape from the emotional hardships of a long stay in foreign territory. Perhaps an example of this can be found in Lot, who endured the hardships of Sodom and Gomorrah only to suffer an unenviable end in a cave above Zoar. And perhaps this is why the apostles exhorted the believers to press on, encouraging them not to grow weary in doing good (i.e. Gal. 6:9).

But what is the solution to all this? What are the options? Can Christians abandon their foreign culture to return to their home one? – Well, yes, I guess they can, but it’s not right to do so, and it’s surely nothing we would call victory in Christ. So, how can one experience true victory in Christ and freedom from culture shock and fatigue? And why should we?

Well, first, I suggest we can live within this foreign spiritual culture and cope effectively with the differences. It may be hard, but we can do it. Beyond that, we should do it. Jesus prayed specifically for this. He prayed, “They are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. I do not pray that You should take them out of the world, but that You should keep them from the evil one.” (John 17:14-15) His prayer is that we would remain in the world but transcend its culture.

Second, I suggest the necessity of our stay is seen in the missional nature of our pilgrimage. We are not here for a vacation; we are here for on a divine mission. Jesus has sent us into this culture. In the same prayer mentioned above, Jesus prayed, “As You sent Me into the world, I also have sent them into the world.” (Jn. 17:18) Indeed, we have been called out from among those languishing in the culture of darkness in order to be lights, pointing the way to the Truth, and serving as ambassadors of the ministry of reconciliation. (2 Cor. 5:18) In other words, we’ve been sent into this world to proclaim Jesus Christ and make disciples.

Third, I suggest we can conquer cultural fatigue by finding our joy and hope in Jesus Christ. Yes, we are in a foreign culture, but we have not been abandoned to it. Jesus is with us, even here, even now, (Matt. 28:19-20) and we can refresh ourselves daily in Him.

Bottom line, if you’re struggling with spiritual cultural fatigue, let me encourage you to focus your attentions once again on Jesus Christ. (Heb. 12:2) Spend some special time with Him in prayer and meditate on His Word. Ponder all you have in Him and pray for those who have not yet trusted Him. Rejoice in Him, and you will be refreshed. As the hymn says…

Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.

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